Me in January 2011.
I’ve been meaning to write a memoriam for 2011, but every time I look back at the past year, I become overwhelmed with all of the things that happened and my fingers clam up the way my mouth would if I was trying to speak. I can’t even talk through text about it without getting blown away by ALL OF THE THINGS.
There’s an alleged phenomenon called the Return of Saturn- apparently, it takes the planet Saturn 29.4 years to orbit the sun. Saturn’s orbit corresponds with human development- according to astrologers, when Saturn returns to the place in orbit it occupied whena person is born, that person goes through major life changes. According to Wikipedia (yeah, I know, not a reliable source, shut up) with the first Saturn return, a person leaves youth behind and enters adulthood. With the second return, maturity. And with the third and usually final return, a person enters wise old age. These returns occur at approximately ages 28-30, 56-60, and 84-90. The phenomenon has influenced tons of literature, works of art, and music. Reason tells me this is hokey, unscientific garbage. However, I can’t deny that in 2011, the blowing winds of change knocked me flat on my ass.
I started 2011 at Futurecon, after an altercation with the person I was living with left me homeless. My friends rallied behind me, and within a few short hours I had help moving and a place to stay. (I still can’t thank you enough, George.) January was also the month I got nominated for Wired’s Sexiest Geeks 2010 contest.
In February, I started to work on myself. I strengthened friendships, looked for a permanent place I could call home, and spent some time looking into who I was and how I could make that better. I challenged my ideas on what I felt strongly about. I met some amazing new people and spent a lot of late nights in conversation. The theme for February was discovery.
This theme carried on through to March, when I found a beautiful apartment with a friend. We named it Fort Dork and started podcasts. I went away to Montreal and had a wild weekend. I left my inhibitions at the door and had some crazy, wonderful experiences.
In April, I went away to Washington, DC, on a road trip with a beautiful, inspiring lady. We drove through mountains and talked frankly about our past and spoke at a conference on sexuality. Being at that conference changed my life. I met a number of people who reaffirmed a lot of philosophies I had taken up on love, relationships, and personal ethics.
I spent May putting those ideals into practice. I met some special people.
In June, I turned 28. Saturn’s return. I also got pregnant.
i found out I was pregnant in July, and spent most of the summer reeling from the news and dealing with morning sickness. I remember very little about July and August. The months went by in a blur.
I started feeling better by September, and decided to keep working on the show throughout my pregnancy. It was a difficult decision. I wasn’t sure how I’d feel about being naked on camera with a big baby bump. I thought I’d feel ungainly and unattractive. However, in the end, I loved the show too much to leave. Fort Dork changed as well. Nicole moved out and one of my oldest and best friends in Toronto, Martini, moved in. While Nicole is an amazing, beautiful person, we didn’t suit living together well. Martini and I meshed much better.
October was a quiet month. I spent a lot of time at home, and started to prepare my home and my life for my incoming spawn. I found out I was having a boy. Things got real.
November I got out as much as I could. Coffee dates, brunch, meetups, and the like.
December was Christmas, and I rang in 2012 the same way I rang in 2011- getting painted naked at Futurecon.
Professionally, last year I had cameos in two separate webcomics, Something Positive and Least I could Do, I interviewed a ton of cool people, I was a guest at Polaris, I was media at a number of conventions, and I was on the convention committee for one. I put together the second annual Questy awards, and I was featured on Entertainment Tonight. I wrote and anchored a number of segments.
Now, we’re coming to the end of January, and my due date inches closer. When I think about the woman I was a year ago, and I think of how she’s changed….
Be sure to check out this weekend’s Naked Nerd. There’s some extra important info this week.
Me in 2012. Do I look like I've changed that much?